Conception
by Pan
She intrigued me before I even opened her mind—she was at least forty, gorgeous, and dressed to pick up. None of this is uncommon in itself, but (without my influence) it's odd to see women so blatantly dressed, rarer still when they're that age, and unprecedented to see someone that attractive trying so hard.
I sat down beside her. Her hand was on my crotch before I'd even placed a drink order, and her tongue was in my ear before it arrived. It wasn't until the cab ride home—her home, at her insistence—that I entered her mind, and was surprised to see the work of a younger, clumsier me.
Inception is an odd film. Two things about it surprised me—the first was that it was enjoyable throughout, a rare feat in a popcorn flick. The second was its accuracy. For the first time, I wondered if I wasn't alone; if perhaps Christopher Nolan had discovered my unique ability as well. It would certainly explain how he manages to get funding for a movie that doesn't treat the audience like idiots, and it would definitely explain how he got that cast.
Of course, the vast majority of the film is completely wrong. Layers of dreams, architects, totems—that’s all science fiction. But one concept stood out and made me wonder if I wasn't the first.
When you place an idea in someone's subconscious, their brain is aware of it. It's not equipped to outright reject a thought, but it can detect that it's out of place, and so it obsesses over it. It tries to approach it from every angle; it tries to justify it, and it can't stop niggling away at it. And when a brain is obsessing over an idea, it becomes the first thing that a person thinks about when they wake up, the last thought on their mind when they go to sleep.
It grows to define them. It changes who they are and bends the course of their life toward the thought, the idea that you’ve put in their head. It becomes their obsession. Their passion.
Their life.
I first met Mrs. Page eighteen years earlier. Even then, a cursory scan of her brain gave me her name—and that was before I truly started to explore my skills. Sixteen years ago, I was only discovering my power and was nowhere near finding its limits.
When I first met Mrs Page, it was only for a few seconds, but those few seconds would go on to define two lives. I had been testing out my talent—she was as attractive then as she was now, and easily caught my attention. I had learned to read surface information and quickly ascertained that she was a mother.
If I'd stopped to do the math, I probably wouldn't have proceeded. I'm not a pervert (well—not that kind of a pervert), but I was probably still high off the buzz of altering my own mother and wanted to share the joy.
Six words. That's all it took. I'm more subtle nowadays, but there's something to admire in the stark simplicity of it. If I were altering her today, I would have cluttered it up, buried it a little, and included some additional commands to email me regularly with updates and photos. But eighteen years ago, I simply added six new words. One thought and I was on my way.
She probably didn't even notice me. If she did, it was just a fleeting thought, wondering what one so young was doing with a gold tooth. There was no eye contact, nothing to separate me from anyone else in the crowd. Nothing to suggest that I was responsible for altering her entire life.
Now, sitting beside her in the cab, enjoying the warmth of her mouth as she ’got me ready,’ I took a trip down her memory lane and saw how those six words had changed everything. How one thought had gotten her from a respectable-looking young mother to the woman who was practically cumming, just from knowing I was hard.
Pleasing your son turns you on.
Marion Page was a single mother of one. Her son, Tom, was just turning one, and her mother was watching him as Marion stepped out to gather food for the party.
It was the last party she would ever throw him.
She shook her head as if shooing a fly and headed back to her car. What an odd thought. She obviously wanted to look after her son—his father may have been long gone, but Marion had resolved to be the best possible mother she could be. He was her world, and she was determined to return the favor.
She dismissed it from her (conscious) mind, and it wasn't until that night when she saw the look of joy on her son’s face, that it returned.
Watching her young child happily open presents, she couldn't help but be aware that her heart rate had increased, and her skin was flushed. It was true—her son’s happiness turned her on.
Marion made an excuse to leave the room and sank back against a wall. What was wrong with her??
The next few months, she claimed illness. Any excuse to be away from her son, she took. Her parents took it as the long-overdue grieving process finally catching up, and happily looked after young Tom for her. She tried everything—she read, she went out with friends, she painted. But all the time, the thought never escaped her.
Pleasing your son turns you on.
Had I seen the first years of Tom's life, I can honestly say that I would never have gone near his mother, never have meddled. I'm many things, but I'm not cruel, and as much as I love playing with people, they always leave happier than when we met.
Not three months after our meeting, tragedy struck the Pages once more. Both of Marion's parents were killed in a car accident. Mercifully, Tom was at home with his mother at the time, but she no longer had an excuse and had no one else to turn to.
Looking back through her memories, her resolve impressed me. Pleasing your son turns you on was in constant battle with the other phrase that defined her, one that no one had externally placed in her mind:
I am a good mother.
The compromise her confused mind reached was simple. She did everything she could to set Tom up for a good life—she made sure he ate well, exercised regularly, and had lots of friends. She sent him to a good school and taught him everything that she felt he needed to know to succeed in life. She was as caring and nurturing as any mother has been, but with one difference—she made sure that nothing she did brought him direct joy.
Once she learned what his favorite meal was, she never cooked it for him. She deprived him of the TV shows he liked, didn't allow him to have friends over, never gave him sweets or hugs or sang him to sleep at night. She was the best mother one could be, while simultaneously making his life a misery.
She slipped, once or twice throughout the years. She absentmindedly patted him on the head affectionately once, when he was five, but the spread of warmth throughout her body when she saw him smile got her attention, and she never made that mistake again. She went along to each of his school plays, but after his beaming face spotted her in the crowd, the wetness that followed was like a kick in the stomach, and she never risked it again.
But constantly being on guard like that, deliberately having to deprive your son… it changes a person. Over the years, Marion became more and more bitter. It was done out of love for her son—a good mother, she knew, should not find her own son a turn-on, and constantly making sure that he never got an ounce of pleasure from her turned Marion into a harsh and hostile person.
Placing a thought into someone's head is an interesting gambit. Once it's out of your hands, the possibilities for interpretation are endless. Pleasing your son turns you on had, in Marion's head, become all-inclusive. Pleasing your son turns you on meant, to her, that nothing else did.
And so, to add to Marion's joyless existence, she couldn't even find relief in masturbation. Any time she tried, her mind turned to her son, and so that part of her life was soon shut off as well.
Raised with a sexless, bitter mother, Tom could easily have become a shadow, a weakling. But again the family impressed me, and Tom grew up into a confident and self-assured young man. He grew up to be harder than he would have been, but his mother's abrasive way of raising him just made him stronger.
And so Tom's life, after I encountered his mother, was spent angry and resentful, feeling unloved and unwanted. His mother was miserable, hating herself, and forced to be constantly cruel to the one person she loved in the world.
The taxi pulled into Mrs Page's house. She paid the fare and led me inside by the cock. I mentally explored the house as soon as we entered and was surprised to discover Tom lying awake in the room next to his mother's.
Probing Tom's mind didn't tell me anything new about his early years, except for a burning resentment for his mother and her actions that she either didn't realize or subconsciously blocked. But it did offer me his perspective on the events of his eighteenth birthday,
His mother, of course, hadn't thrown him a party. She had become aware, on some level, that spending time with her made Tom miserable, and so (in a move that even the most sadistic person would have found excessively harsh) insisted that he spend the day on a walking tour of their town. Nothing but walking from one end of the town and back again, all under the claim that the exercise was ’good for him’.
Seventeen years of depriving her son of pleasure had made Marion develop a unique sense of cruelty.
It was a Saturday, so she made sure that their route took them nowhere near the mall, the park, or anywhere that could be interesting or engaging. It was all back roads and suburbia, mostly without conversation.
They were less than a block away from his school when the storm hit.
Neither of them had brought wet weather gear, and they were a full half-hour away from anyone who could take them in, and an hour's run from their own house. Fortunately, Tom recognized the area and directed them toward his chemistry classroom, which had one window that he knew couldn’t close.
If it had been a shower or a drizzle, Tom’s mother could have brushed it off as ‘character-building’ and insisted that they continue the walk. But after the first pieces of hail hit, she admitted that they needed to find somewhere to shelter from the weather and didn't even reprimand Tom when he broke the lock to let her through the classroom door.
They sat there in silence, shivering, watching the rain and hail pelt down outside. Tom briefly tried looking around for something to dry themselves off with—or a change of clothes—but short of lighting a bunsen burner, his search uncovered nothing useful.
When the lights and electricity went out, it was all Tom's mother could do not to swear. She glanced over at her son. She didn’t remember the last time she’d seen him looking this vulnerable.
Cold and exhausted (both physically and emotionally), Tom was at the end of his rope. He huddled into a ball and tried not to think about everything that he hated in his life.
"Well," said Tom's mother, at a loss for what to say. "Looks like we might be spending the night here."
There was a long silence, and for the first time that either of them could remember, Tom let out a sob. His voice cracked as he dragged up the one moment of maternal comfort he could remember.
"Mom…"
"Yes, honey?"
"Could you sing me a lullaby?"
Marion's heart went out to her son, her instincts flew out the window, and she nodded.
"Of course, my darling."
Even as she said it, knowing that Tom was drawing comfort from her made her go warm. But she pressed on, and put a hand out to grasp Tom's.
"Hush little baby, don't say a word. Mama's going to buy you a mockingbird…"
Marion's voice was nothing special, but to Tom, it suddenly represented everything his mother had never been.
"If that mockingbird won't sing, Mama's going to buy you a diamond ring…"
Marion was aware that she shouldn't be doing it. Not two lines in, her nipples were already rock-hard, and she was dripping wet.
"If that diamond ring turns brass…"
She tried to concentrate on the words; tried not to moan. Fifteen years of sexual repression were suddenly catching up with her. She didn't even have to look at Tom to realize what this must mean to him, what this must be doing to him.
"… Mama's going to buy you a piece of ass."
Without even realizing it, her hand was no longer passively holding Tom’s but stroking it, and her other hand had come up to her breasts.
"If that ass will not put out…"
The lines weren't coming out as clearly anymore. She was starting to pant, her body reacting to both her son's obvious pleasure and her own efforts. One hand was tweaking her nipples, her thighs were rubbing against each other. She was alternating between clutching Tom's hand and playing with it, and it was all she could do to prevent herself from bringing it to her mouth and sucking on it…
"Mother?"
Tom must have worked something out. She knew that she just had to get through this last verse. If she could finish this last verse without jumping her son, without pulling him deep inside of her and giving him that perverse, exquisite pleasure…
"Mom?"
Lightning struck, just as Marion turned to catch her son's eyes. Suddenly illuminated, she realized that he must have seen her pawing herself like an animal, panting and moaning like a bitch in heat.
She realized that he may even have been able to see her nipples, hard through two layers of wet clothing. She snatched her hand away from him and opened her mouth to say something, anything, that would stop her from going down this path again…
Lightning struck once more, and Marion realized that nipples weren't the only erect extremity that could be seen through wet clothing.
Just that one, split-second glimpse of his mother, that image of her as something more than a repressed old maid, that single snapshot of her as a real live warm-blooded woman, that had been enough to get Tom hard.
And Marion had seen it.
She had given her son pleasure. She had given her son a LOT of pleasure.
Marion's lust immediately took over. Every other instinct was abandoned; her rational mind, her desire to protect her child from her own sick desires, her self-control. All that mattered was getting fucked. Giving Tom more of that sweet, sweet pleasure and getting more herself.
Marion leaned in close and whispered in her son's ear in a deep, husky voice.
"Did you like that, baby?"
One hand went down and felt that wet, hard penis through his shorts.
"Did you like seeing mommy play with herself?'
She started to stroke it, as Tom stammered in disbelief.
"Would you like to see more?"
Without even waiting for an answer, she was taking off her clothes. It was still dark, but she quickly had his hands exploring what he couldn't see.
Fifteen years of repression, combined with her one obsession of giving her son pleasure meant that Marion was orgasming before he'd even found her nipples. She was coming over and over again as he licked her wet skin wherever he could reach, as she took his cock in her mouth, in her pussy, wherever he could stick it.
The storm lasted almost two hours. Marion and Tom lasted eight, finally stopping from exhaustion and sleeping on the cold Chemistry classroom floor. Both of them were more satisfied than they'd ever been in their lives.
Had the next day been a school day, their story would have ended quite differently. Fortunately, they woke up around noon on Sunday, cleaned up as much as they could, and left for home to start again.
The next few years were a sexual blur, in both Tom's mind and his mother's. She was willing to do literally anything for him, and for the first month after that night in his school, Tom's scholarly education took a backseat to his sexual education.
He had his mother in every position, and no matter what he did—spanking, melting wax, nipple clamps—she came every time. Tom was able to compensate for a decade and a half of hating his mother, but no matter how harsh he got, no matter how badly he treated his mother or how sadistic his actions, she knew that by being the recipient she was pleasing him, and her orgasms were loud and frequent.
Oddly enough, this sex-obsessed woman, always happy, always enthusiastic, and (in a change that he found harder to adjust to than their new sexual relationship) always tender and loving, was probably closer to the woman Marion would have been had I never crossed her path. The miserable, repressed woman who raised him was gone overnight and replaced by a mother who loved her son—in every sense of the word.
Poor Tom, of course, had no idea what caused the sudden change in his mother's personality. He suspected mind control and (not unreasonably) assumed that it had come from inside him, some kind of latent psychic ability. He tried everything on everyone—being soaked and cold, getting them to sing for him, and even bringing a girl to the same place every year on his birthday, the anniversary of the night that changed his life, but nothing worked.
So he made the best of what he had—his mother was more than happy to teach him every sexual trick she knew (she even learned a few more just to teach him) and to share all the knowledge she had of how to get a girl into bed. Less than a year after his mother threw herself at him, Tom had managed to earn a reputation around the school as quite a ladies’ man. Marion, knowing that it was her shared wisdom that was giving her son pleasure, quite often hid in his closet and enjoyed herself just as much as he did, simply by watching.
She had found out every one of his fantasies and fulfilled them. If he'd wanted size H breasts, she would have gone out and gotten the implants the next day. As it was, she did everything she could to ensure that his life was as perfect as possible, and spent all of her time at work, fucking Tom or working out to keep her body as fit, trim, and youthful as possible.
Inevitably, the thrill of having access to an older woman (even his mother) started to wear off, and Tom found himself spending more and more time with the nubile young women closer to his own age, and less time using his mother's body for pleasure.
She still tried to please him in every way she could—for a time, her nights were spent out at gay bars, picking up women and taking them home, with Tom taking his turn in the closet watching. Whenever possible, she would even try to convince her partner for the night to let him join in. (never explicitly stating that he was her son, but it was hardly a huge leap to work it out.)
But Tom’s exploits increasingly excluded his mother. She was still happy that he was happy, but he’d started to talk of moving out and heading interstate for college, and she knew that their days together were numbered.
The game that she was playing tonight was one of the few ways she still excited him (aside from an occasional fuck when he couldn't be bothered leaving the house for sex). It was a game I would have probably been happy to play even without riding the emotions of each participant.
Mrs. Page led me upstairs, and as she bounced up and down on my cock, I started to realize how the game would play. Her loud—unnaturally loud, even for an enthusiastic lover—moans and screams soon penetrated the house and woke up Tom's bed partner.
I followed the reactions of both Tom and his girl of the night, Eve. It was a fascinating dance of emotions—Tom knew his way around both a woman's body and her ego. She started out disgusted, knowing that his mom was such a slut. But Tom knew where to prod, where to tweak, what to say, and how to use his hands.
Within a few minutes, Eve was turned on and feeling competitive. In less than 10, she was riding Tom, enjoying his experienced member inside of her, expressing her enjoyment as loudly as she could.
I chuckled to myself as I filled up Marion, which triggered her orgasm. Tom had a hell of an imagination. Making a girl compete with your slutty mom for volume isn't something that ever would have occurred to me, but I could definitely see the appeal. I almost considered lending him a power or two, just to see what a mind like his would do with it, but as my post-orgasmic high wore off, I reasoned that I had done more than enough for the young lad.
The four of us lay there, separated by only the thinnest walls in the house, Tom and I sharing a post-coital smile as we lay next to two very satisfied women.
As I got ready to leave, I noticed Mrs Page lying in bed with her hips elevated. I realized I had served my purpose in their little sexual play, and I was hardly expecting her to see me out, but it took a few seconds of poking around in her mind before I realized what she was doing.
Pleasure is addictive, and obsession more so. Mrs Page had never asked her son whether he wanted children, taking his consistent use of contraception as an answer.
But with her only child leaving, that meant that Mrs Page would be without a constant source of pleasure. Without Tom around to make her happy, she would lose the orgasmic glow that constantly surrounded her. Short of following him to college (which would certainly cause enough displeasure to be self-defeating), there was nothing she could do to prevent her from being cut off from her source.
But if she was going to be meeting anonymous men in bars every night or two and taking them back anyway…
As I said, when you put a thought into someone's head, you lose all control of it. "Your son," I had originally said. Mrs Page only had one child, so ’your son’ simply referred to her offspring.
All of her offspring, present and future.
I may as well have said ‘Your children’s pleasure turns you on.’
I smiled, put on my hat, and got ready to leave the Page household. Forty wasn’t too old to have a second child. This time, she’d do it right. This time, she’d make sure that the kid had everything it needed, twenty-four-seven. This time, she'd be orgasming from the first kick.
I made a note of the address and took my leave.
I'd have to check back in again in a few years and see if I was a father.